Forever Man

**moved from my Mi Amore blog (August 22nd, 2007 by shiksa-08)

I love the way you look at me

It’s as if you’re filling my emptiness

I love the way you touch me

’cause even the depths of my soul feels it

From a lonely damsel, you caught me

brought into a paradise I never thought I can be

I was renewed by all the wounds I’ve caused you

I knew I love you, the day you cried

The love and passion, how we both share

The hugs and kisses, these things I can’t compare

The man I never saw before, turns out to be my forever man

Like a baby you cradled me into your arms

Only to protect me from the past that haunts me

You never asked for anything but my happiness

You always knew, that there’s light in the midst of my hopelessness

You always knew that someday, somehow I will also love you

You never left me despite the pain

And I said never to hurt you again

Because I love you, I want you to be my forever man

Love life…

**moved from my Mi Amore blog (December 21st, 2006 by shiksa-08)

At long last, i can officially and legally have my vacation without thinking that i might miss a class, a quiz, a recitation, an event. Our prelim exams, I’m so over them except for one, and that’s the bar exams….haha like we’re lawyers and all that…. nah what i’m trying to say my polsci exam. God, i thought she won’t give me a hard time in taking the exam but then it turned out she didn’t allow me to ‘coz as always, i don’t have permit again, like i’m not used to it, duh?! Now that i’ve already spent roughly 5 years in college, like it still brings me down, but nah, i’m immune to it though.haha

Week after week after the Sportfest it seemed like i got sickness one after another. The heck?! My body doesn’t seem like fighting away all the sickness i’ve been thru. I’ve lost my weight and looked all so dull not only to my eyes but to everyone’s. Grr… That’s why this vacation, I’ll really make myself bloat, haha, exaj, make myself look like what i used to be back when i still cute and cuddly (did i just make myself sound like a penguin?haha). Anyways, I’m still happy though after all the sickness, the absences, the meetings, the events, at least i’m lucky, i’m still alive! I still got my supportive friends, my all-the-usual family, my loving boo, my life. That worth all the count. Thank God for making me feel oh so alive, having all the trials, the laughters, the happiness, the river of tears. Oh it feels so right, so good and makes me to ask for more for me to grow more (not physically anyway,,,haha) and to become human.

My life ROCKS, my life’s COOL (accidentally though), my life is all i got and i’m enjoying it and spending it to the limit! Hallelujah! Amen!

Love you Jesus! Love you Gj!

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**moved from my Mi Amore blog (June 21st, 2006 by shiksa-08)

why when things turn so good and so lovely
you suddenly think of things that hurts you,
things that hurts me as well
when you knew i love you
why cant we just live and love
why cant you let go of the thoughts that’s
burdening you
why cant you think ill always be here for you
why cant you think that il never be gone
what can i do to make you believe
what can i do to stop you from hurting yourself
what can i do to save you from the painful what if’s
how can we go on and get strong when you allow
these lies to lurk in your head
and tear your heart apart
you even want to let me go ’cause you’re scared
yeah you’re scared, but of what?
you’re scared of the things that may happen
but will not, can never be..
if you do love me then fight it,
fight away those thoughts, it’s all a lie.
all your fake prophecies of our love..
why cant you believe in the love that
has been made strong by time, by storm,
by our intimacy, by living everyday with the feeling
growing deeply.
Is our love not enough,
Is my love not enough,
Is my sincerity not enough,
Are my tears not enough,
Are my pains not enough,
Are my transformations not enough,
For you to let it all go.
Do you want me to die for you?
’cause i can, i will, only if you ask me to
only for you to believe me and let it all go.
I love you and its growing more each day,
I love you and I’ll do anything for you.
So please…
let God be our guide,
let the pain drown,
let the bad thoughts fade away,
let LOVE be our GREATEST BOND.

I love you…I’ll never leave you….pls just BELIEVE.

Frustration Part I

**moved from my Mi Amore blog (May 26th, 2006 by shiksa-08)

This past few weeks, I was anxious of the things that’s happening to me, of the things that’s playing in my head. Distortions of which has led me to stuck into this maze again. To think I already moved on from these things. These things whenever strikes me that I simply laugh about ‘coz I thought I’m done with them. Then on I get to realize that they came but haven’t gone, haven’t lost forever, haven’t faded away. Here they are, they all came back, all of ‘em.